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           Love was never meant to be easy. You'd think it was, the way it's portrayed. In the movies, the boy and the girl always fall in love in the end. They just can't help it. I've always wanted a love like that. I'm sure I'm not the only one, either. We all saw the boy-meets-girl scene, the joy of falling for someone, and the way the characters lived out their dreams. Knowing full well that they were just actors, filling the roles they were given, reading from a page that was written by some starry-eyed writer. But we wanted it too.

          I once starred in romance, the most movie-like romance you could get. It was so cleche. But I loved every moment of it, thinking, "This is just like a movie. This will be perfect. We will finally have our 'happily ever after'" But they had never showed in the movie, the part where the boy and girl fall out of love. The part when the boy forgets love, forgets why he even wanted her. And the girl prays he will remember, pretends it isn't happening. Only to be disappointed. And then I realized, real Love couldn't be like a movie. Love can't end happily because love should never end. But nevertheless, the credits were rolling, and he was nowhere in sight.

         So I quit the role, refused to act alongside him anymore. And the on-screen chemistry was lost. I began trying to remember the long lost words of my old monologue, my script from before I met him. It had been written by my friends and family, the words of wisdom I'd been taught all my life. It had been written by movies and magazines, and Disney's ideals of love about a prince who would rescue me. But even though I remembered, the words were difficult to say, and they didn't always come out right. I kept waiting for him to finish the dialogue for me, for him to play opposite me again and complete the scene. It had been so much easier to speak of my dreams and wishes of love before they had all been proven wrong . As I choked the words out, they felt strange. I kept repeating myself, but I didn't believe any of it. I knew the old script would not suffice.

         I began writing my own script. I contemplated the meaning of each word, testing whatever it was I'd been told to say before. It was a long and difficult process, and at times I wanted to give it all up and beg him to let me be his Juliet again. But I knew that was no longer my role. This was my story, and it needed to be written. So I continued on, night and day, letting my pain soak the paper and become part of the script. I wrote of the past, the things I had learned from loving him and losing him. I wrote of the future and the endless possibilities. Writing each word with care, I formed my part in the monologue, and as I was making her, she was making me. I was becoming the character I was meant to play.

        And when it was complete, I found that it was good even without him. My words could have strength and meaning, and so could I, even standing all alone on the stage. And so, with the spotlight shining in my eyes, I walked to center stage, faced my audience, the world. I took a deep breath. And began my very own monolgue.
Uhm, I'm not sure what to say. I started writing and it became this. This actually had very very little editing. I wrote the whole thing through, and then went back and only changed a few words.
I may change the title.....i'm not sure i like it.
What do you think?
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aryaneth Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2009  Hobbyist Photographer
It's lovely! In fact, I want to use it for an audition if you allow :D
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
Absolutely, I only ask that you give me credit. By Gabrielle Smith, or something like that. Or at the very least, Emocinderella from DeviantArt.com
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diodood Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2008
Wow,... it's a great poem (based on my opinion) :lol:
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2008  Hobbyist Writer
Aww I'm glad you think so!
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diodood Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2008
Cheeers.... :)
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SicadaLemmingMan Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2008
its great..
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2008  Hobbyist Writer
^_^
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SicadaLemmingMan Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2008
:> te he.. < -- i swear i started
that in chat slang.. ill swear till im blue in the face too..
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2008  Hobbyist Writer
Really?? Cuz I thought i was the one who started that!! lol..
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SicadaLemmingMan Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2008
lol shurrup..
seriously though, i had never seen it used untill i started
typing that as a sarcastic laugh.. its something i took from John
Lennon that he would do in movies and interviews.. i know its a
common expression of being coy, but as far as online, i was a heavy
user of this before i started seeing it round, and that was waaay back to 99' 2000 even.. lol but whatever.. TE HE!! away.. lol
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2008  Hobbyist Writer
no I had a dream about it once and then I started using it and then it made history...that's how it went down. lol
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SicadaLemmingMan Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2008
lol! and then you took a tour
through the cow pavillion and stepped
into some, BULLSHIT.. lol
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sweet-melancholiness Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2008
*speechless*
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2008  Hobbyist Writer
^_^ Thanks!!
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Kairilovesyou Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2008  Student Writer
powerful, lovely and enchanting
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2008  Hobbyist Writer
Why thank you! ^_^
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Kairilovesyou Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2008  Student Writer
Welcome!!
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despairinspired Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, great job. I never thought about comparing being single to a monologue before.
It works best if it's read aloud methinks.

(Sorry if this is being picky but, line 20. It's cliché not cleche.)
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
Aw dang. ....I knew that wasn't how it was spelled....*sigh*.

And thank you very much. Yes, I have very weird ways of thinking of things. But they say, your life is a stage and the world is your audience, soo it kinda makes sense. But that's just what it feels like when you do a monologue....you're used to having other actors on the stage to play off of and react to, so if they were just suddenly eliminated, then it doesn't work. Therefore I had to rewrite the script, so nothing would be missing. Just like in life, after a break up, I can't keep on doing the same things, waiting around at home during the times he would call, because he's not going to. So I had to rearrange my life to where nothings' missing anymore.
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despairinspired Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
Oh yeah I remember. Shakespeare said that didn't he? "The whole world's a Stage, and the people area the players"
I love the thought that went into this. It really makes sense.
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
Yes, he did! Yay, a shakespeare friend! haha.
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despairinspired Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
Shakespeare kicks ass!
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
haha yesssss
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Osiris916 Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2007   Writer
Damn, you're one of those people that can't do something wrong, I see
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
Aww, I'll take that as a very nice compliment. ^_^

....right??
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Osiris916 Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2007   Writer
That's exactly what it's supposed to mean.
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
oh ok, well in that case, thank you. ^_^
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Osiris916 Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2007   Writer
Very welcome :D
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ksmsoccer89 Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2007
i think this is absolutely amazing. its so real and the words flow so nicely. you let the reader in and know what it feels like. its hard to put into words how great i think this is. its breathtaking and so powerful as well as beautiful. absolutely amazing job. definitely your best piece of work yet... :)
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
Aww thanks sooo much Kody!!
You're an awesome friend! It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside to read that comment!
I'm so glad you liked it. Thank you.
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ksmsoccer89 Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2007
youre welcome sweetie. youre a great friend as well. ive missed talking to you hun. how have you been?
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
I've actually been doing a lot better lately...you know, letting old things go...etc. I have a new special someone in my life...ish. I mean, we're just staying friends for now, cuz I'm not ready for a new relationship still. (yes, yes even though it's been six months.) But it is quite exciting to have someone new to think about, and someone who says he misses me and calls me beautiful and enjoys talking to me and looks forward to being with me...it's very wonderful...and yet terrifying at the same time. lol. How have you been? What about this girl you were telling me about, are things still going good?
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ksmsoccer89 Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2007
im glad youve been doing better and have learned to let things go...im glad you found someone else who makes you happy now. im really happy for you. and theres nothing wrong with taking it slow and not wanting to rush into anything. thats the best way to do it...it really is wonderful to have someone like that and it may be terrifying but dont let it scare you away...ive been pretty great myself. school is still going pretty well and its still a lot of fun. and well with me and that girl, we are now actually officially together and things are amazing. im glad i took a chance. shes so great and i already think i love her. she makes me so happy and i never wanna be away from her...its a great feeling :)
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
Aww, Kody that is soooo awesome! That makes me happy just knowing that you're happy and you've found someone special! but this means no more pity parties. And I was quite enjoying those. lol. Yes, I know you are definitely right. You always are. haha. ^_^
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ksmsoccer89 Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2007
yeah it really is. and thanks. youre sooo sweet. and well i might still get down on myself some times. so i might still have some pity parties lol. haha im not always right but thanks. im always here for ya :-D
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome. And don't be so hard on yourself, Kody, you really are a great guy. And it's ok, if you find yourself pity partying you can invite me, I always can find some reason to feel sorry for myself. lol. sad but true. And thanks again for being here for me. ^_^
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ericwilding Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2007
Great stuff. The flow-of-consciousness aspect to it is there, but it's such a highly readable piece that you don't really notice it; you're just kept into the flow of the writing and the emotions that are coming across. Artists can sit in their studios and toil, and critics can sit in their ivory towers and discuss what 'artistic merit' is, but personally it's work like this that makes the world come alive - and most importantly, from the reader's perspective, reminds him or her that their boat is the same, or better, than other peoples'.

Awesome stuff. :) I think you should consider yourself :+favlove:ed.
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
wow that means so much to me.
Thank you very much. I think it's absolutely shocking that people actually like this stuff I just pull out of my head. Totally made my day.
Thanks for your comment! ^_^
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sir-plokji Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2007
B-)
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dnmph Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2007
Really really very good... I can totally relate, and you've put it perfectly. Taking on just what you could explain and just what you could handle and not more.
Well written indeed.
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
Yay! I'm glad you liked it and could relate to it. Thank you very much for your comment! ^_^
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dnmph Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2007
No problem, kinda had to comment on that one, certainly earned it :D
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
^_^ :hug:
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meeden Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2007
cool set up of emotions as if on stage and the stage fright hits - well done - great title :butterfly:
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very much!
lol though I just now rewrote a whole bunch of it.
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girlwithdragoneyes Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2007   Writer
i really like the meaning behind it. coparing it to movies is lovely.
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
yeah, me too....i'm not sure where I got it, I just started rambling. lol.
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girlwithdragoneyes Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2007   Writer
lol rambling leads to almost everhitng in life good or bad, but this is good
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Emocinderella Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
lol. Very true. I'm amazed that this turned out so on topic! I tend to stray... alot! But thanks, I'm really glad you liked it.
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girlwithdragoneyes Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2007   Writer
yes i also have the losing -track- of-what -the -point -was, also known as sway-disease.
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